are my ways of doing things wrong? I don't want to doubt myself. but why do you have to bring me down all the time? You know that you do that a lot. i know that everyone does that. but isn't it frustrating when there's nobody who actually sees that you are struggling? this world is not easy. everything is made complicated. i don't want to look all cheerful anymore. i want to be able to vent and go crazy and shout and scream. but nobody really sees that desire. there're those time where you really want to give up and stop everything you are doing. guess that's why i play my guitar and do my craft work.
i'll be okay. i'll always be okay. i learnt to shut off negative feelings. since i'm so freaking sensitive. but i don't want to feel negative anymore. i'm working so hard, but yet nothing is being produced. i miss the past. but the past is gone, and i didn't appreciate it enough. i just need someone or something to hug. someone to tell me that it is okay to break down and feel sad. but i don't do that. i don't do emo statuses and sad faces. i'll just keep it in me and wait for it to go away. it's not going to be easy, but i know it will. it always does. please give me someone to talk to.
